xoxo.

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I am having a somesort of a dilemma. I still havent had the chance to tell Armin yet. I have no idea how to bring up the subject. But I have to, cos Superboy<3 said it would be unfair to Armin. Yeah. I have too. He’s in reservist and been really bz that practically he’s uncontactable at times.

To Ria : Be strong. I love you. Tomorrow I’m yours.

I am currently mugging and chatting with Saddiq. Waiting up for Superboy<3 to finish his duty later.

xoxo.

School has been quite hectic lately. I was drowned in assignments and watnorts. Unable to meet up with besties. Only like once in a while. The last I met Wan was like last 2 weeks when his GF got tickets to Escape. That was a blast. With Ria Sweets too.

Thank goodness assignments is done. Alhamdulilah. Now exams are like dawning on me! Two more weeks, there’s not much time really. I need to study for EOHS LAW, ENVIRONMENTAL CONTROL POLLUTION & OCCUPATIONAL SAFETY. Damn it, it may seem like 3 modules – but all of them are killers. You guys should see my notes. A whole damn lot. My dad was frigging shocked. “Now you noe eh papa, how stress your daughter is!”

Im currently not werking and I already can feel the tiredness and such. Can u imagine if I was still in Sub Courts. I told Boyfie that I could have drop dead! lol. The work is piling up hearing from wad Jie told me. Met up with the colleagues last week to have dinner at Brastagi. It was nice. Thanks for the treat Auntie D.

And lastly last Sat – 28th March was heavenly. I had a date with Boyfie. Lunch at Marina Sq followed by a movie treat from Boyfie. Walked around Town, met his family and den straight home. It was already nearing 8plus when I got home and I was a happy goober but still never get enough of my Baby. Can’t wait for tomorrow. Seriously hoping noting will get into our way of meeting each other. Baby gets to book out! I am feeling a teeny bit better cos he juz smsed me. His batt is dying thus cant really talk, upset. ILY BABY.

xoxo.

Me and Armin are motivating each other. haha.

I damn need to lose those extra pounds I gained over the year. 

Ok Aini, stop procrastinating! 

xoxo.

It’s been a while since I last update. So much has happen lately. Good things I must say. I wish to stress this again, that I have never been much more happier than I am now. Life has been going exactly where I want it to. I’m a happy woman! =)

Been doing some catching up with the besties. Every moment with them is bliss, thanks loves. Wan is going to NS on the 10th and Ria is still in HTA. Meeting them is a rare opportunity and thus I treat every meetup like gem. 

School has been an ok-factor for me. Presentation for Occupational Safety is done. So now I’m left with Assignment 2 for Law, Project for ECP and report for my Occupational Safety. Oh ya, and definitely exams. grrr. 

In Feb, went out with a couple of people. Even managed to catch up with the cousins. Abg Ayi, Khairul and Ain. Love you all to bits. Later after that Armin came  to Esplanade to fetch us. Thank you love. Appreciate it. I have been so frigging pampered lately. haha. After having dinner at Tamp and sending the kuzzies back, Armin send me home. Those moments were irreplaceable. 

For whatever it is worth, me and Armin are taking it a step at a time. Its good really. We are happy where we are now. 5 years plus of history. Hot & Cold relationship as I called it. heh. The feelings never did really go away. It works for both ways. Maybe if we got together in the past, we would not have what we have now. He’s a great friend. And Armin, even though you don’t express yourself anymore, I can feel the love from you. So don’t worry, I am ok with it. As we both agreed, we are dating. Thus, wouldnt wanna rush into stuffs. and oh, thanks for yesterday baby.

For E, well, its weird considering still seeing him in class. But he’s a good friend now. My classmates are good people and they are seriously fun to hang out with.

I am missing my best friends already.

I need to get back to my ECP notes now. Have a quiz later on. Going out with a friend later and after that school.

And oh, me and Liyana are planning a reunion for CSS. A gathering. Hope it goes well. 

xoxo.

‘Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way
About me, just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think when you’re all alone
All the we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
‘Cause I’ve tried and tried to walk away
But I know this crush ain’t going away..”

crush – david archuleta

I am missing E too damn badly. I tried my best to keep myself away from him. After yesterday’s event, I guessed it was wise to pull out from this relationship that was obviously going nowhere. Why should i be the one to be left hanging right? I mean after E and I are still friends. It would be weird for awhile considering that we’re classmates, we’ll make it through. E sms-ed me this morning asking bout me. Honestly, E i feel like crap and I noe you do too considering what has happen. You couldn’t be totally blamed, cos I was part of the deal. I knew what I was getting myself into. I know I can be emotional and all. I know that I am craving for you, E.  But I got to let this go and be glad that at least I got to keep those memories with you forever, E. I love you E but I rather stay the way I am. That is keeping my options open. Maybe Ria is right. There will surely be someone right out there for me.

Goodbye E. I’ll miss you baby.

xoxo.

Thanks for the perfect afternoon darlings. Appreciate your company. Wouldnt have made it through without the both of you. Love you both to bits and pieces. =)

On another note, I think I might have gotten myself too involved even without me realising it. At this point of time, I just wanna stay single. It’s really a bliss. Have never enjoyed myself thoroughly until now. Seriously. I miss E loads. But maybe it’s for the best. We won’t noe what the future holds. As E said, I would have made a calculated risk before getting involved. Chances are slim of us being together. I understand that. That’s why, I am juz chilling out and go to school and do wartnots. 

Till Friday, loves.

Sheesha.